I am... tired. I don't think I can fight any longer. I am trying so hard to ignore reality. Most of the time it works, and I am content in my bubble. But sometimes it gets to me.
Today it got to me.
Because I let it get to me.
I will lose eventually. And to others nothing will be different. Nothing will change.
At least there is music, as pathetic as that sounds.
It is a good day. Why am I letting it get to me again? Why don't I have the energy to keep fighting?
^{why do I need to keep fighting? when will it end?}